Confusion.......contd....

Four hectic weeks have passed of my life's toughest and roughest roller coaster ride..... currently on a plain... don't know till when...

The electric vehicle's quick ride came to an end in the building behind around 4-500 meters from where my baby was delivered..... as soon as we reached there the doctor rushed to the lift and asked the lift operator to put the lift in non-stop mode..... 'Not available' came the reply..... the lift had to stop at every floor and as soon as the door opens... we had to stop the people from coming inside.... Somehow we made it to the 4th floor PITU..... and a bed was ready with the incubator and O2.... thats when I had the first glimpse of my daughter.... reddd is the word that came to my mind.... somehow the first look of the just born....if I say I didn't like it, I would not be incorrect.... however, a part of me was lying there and trying hard to breathe... emotions came out in the form of tears.... told her 'dear fight hard and stay put'..... I would go get your Amma....Nurse attending the baby said.... 'we need someone here'.... I called up my Sis-In-Law to the PITU handed over the charge and left from there....

Then I realised, I had carried the foot/shoe cover (made of cloth used in CCU's in the hospital) all the way to this building..... Taking them off I came back to the OT... and continued my wait in there..... I just felt sooooo very good that I was alone there... My parents and in-laws or even brother, if around would have made me break into tears..... Solitude made me stronger....

Then came the moment I have been waiting for.... the doctor came out and asked 'who is with Mrs Sandhya Pramod'.... I stood up and he took me inside.... two promoted to parenthood few minutes ago were to meet... As soon as Sandhya saw me.... 'Sihi bandiddaalalwa... neenu helida haage' (In English : 'Sihi (Sweet) has come as you had wished').... Through her pregnancy I wanted a daughter... and most people who saw Sandhya during her pregnancy told she would deliver a son..... Even we had to decide on my Son's name towards the end of her pregnancy....

..............to be continued.....