(Extracts) My Best friend's email.... :)

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Do u remember the way I got to know u? U had sent me a letter. In
it u had typed just one line "What's a zzar?". I replied promptly
saying everything I knew abt it. Then even I never thought we
would last this long. How u got me address is still a mystery to
me!!!
U have been with me all along. More than I've been with u. I have
never been with u in the emotional sense. I felt u never needed
me... I thought that u were the happy-go-lucky sort of a person...
'cuz u were always soooo cheerful, sending me jokes and all. U did
show me how deep u were in thinking, that day when u advised me
about death. I have saved it and made a hardcopy too.
Don't u worry about what u are gonna do now.(I don't think u r
worried in the least! Still I said...). Life is too short, and
happiness is like a soap bubble. Goes away in a moment. I can
tell u will b happy with Sandhya for a long long time. And things
I tell come true. I prayed for u both the moment I got ur letter.
It will be alright. Ur mom and dad - they will be happy too, to
see a couple so happy and so in love. Love always brings what is
most required. Don't ever think that u r a disappointment to them.
Tell them that u have made me proud to have u as my friend. U r a
thoughtful and sensitive person. U will keep them happy... Put all
ur doubts to rest here.
I can remember a dream I got when I was 9 years old. The morn was
bright and the sun was shining brilliantly through the glass
windows.The windows were too high 4 me. But I could see the
shadows of tall grass. I was happy. I knew there was a beautiful
garden outside, I knew I would eventually grow up to be tall
enough 4 the window. So I was happy. Eventually, Pammi, happiness
will come in search of u and will not let u go! The quote u used
to send me with ur mails:"Don't fear shadows. It means light is
somewhere near." Its ture, isn't it?
I will always b with u, whatever u do. So will God. Let the smile
u type next time be a real one!! Hope I have achieved something
with this letter of mine.
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I am still in search of you.... my friend... :) (The smiley you identified me with)
Cheers
Pammi

....and you learn

||A Sweet Poem I found in one of my old Hotmail signatures.....
Dunno who the Author/Poet was...ITS DEFINITELY NOT ME :) ||

After a while, you learn the subtle difference between
holding a hand and chaining a soul

and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises

and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes ahead
with the grace of a woman not the grief of a child

and you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After a while, you learn that even sunshine burns
if you get too much
so you plant your own garden
and decorate your own soul
instead of waiting
for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure
that you really are strong
and you really do have worth
and you learn
and you learn
with every goodbye you learn.

When I re-learnt walking ...

Last summer In Norway, I tried walking with skis on.... to watch an expert ski made me feel its soo easy... That was my first stumbling block.... Suddenly I was struck to something below
my shoes (Not mine really... I had to wear shoes of someone else which would fit me... reminds me of 'Getting yourself into Someone elses shoe'... ).... That something was running 3 feet infront and 3 feet behind me too..... Imagine what was the first thing I was asked to try with my skis on..... WALK... !! they said... 'Try and walk with them... without falling... ;)'.... It was sooo very
difficult just to walk with the skis.... Next step is try sliding one foot after the other.... Thats when I fell for the first time... Falling down was pretty easy... The most difficult part of skiing was to get up after a nasty fall..... Suddenly you put your Thinking hat on and start working out ways you could get up.... It did remind me of my nieces first steps and falls... I don't remember mine.. :) To my surprise I was sweating inside three layers of clothing and in the temperature 4 degrees on other side of ZERO..... !! I managed to ski a little finally after couple of hours of falls and rises.... I don't equate that to 'I Learnt SKIING' though....

Then again... In Scotland.... I tried ICE SKATING.... I didn't know the area would be called a RINK until I got there.... Again the same 'funda'.. trying to walk on two blades below the ice
skate training shoes.... and ON ICE.... ;).... I couldn't make up my mind to leave the short boundary wall and try standing on my feet the first day..... The next day the trainer was around.. and I had the courage to try and walk... without holding on to anything..... and there it was... A trainer's first lesson got me moving on ICE with the skates on....Hurray!!!.... as soon as I said that.... I had a BIGGG.... 78 Kilo fall...to the ice beneath... There was this cute little 3 year old... around with the trainer... when trainer asked me 'Are you alright?'... I said 'If you don't fall you won't learn'... The kiddo instantaneously uttered 'I have fallen many times... don't worry you are doing alright!!'.... Those words of encouragement from the cute girl... is making me to go skating this weekend again... :)

Cheers!
Pramod